Dick wrote:
On 31 Mar 2005 15:53:16 -0800, "
wrote:

Hi guys,

I own a tank for more than a month now and right now I have mixed
feelings about it.

It is not what I expected it to be and I am starting to think of
getting rid of it.

It has nothing to do of taking care of the fish, the money spent on
hardware.

It's just I like animals and it stresses me to see fish die and I am
the one to blame for it due to my inexperience and for putting fish
into a tank and play with their lifes...

I had fish that died because they got sucked into the filter,
because the water didnt have the proper qualities and now because of
disease...
It's a constant battle for me to take care of the fish and I am
losing
it.

Sorry for my venting but I am frustrated.
Thanks

Great you felt you could vent here. It is hard to play God. Things
get ill, die and then we gods make mistakes. I have known friends,
when I was in my twenties, that said they would "never fall in love
again" after a breakup with someone they "loved."

I have had to put my pet dogs to sleep for various reasons. I have
cried over them more than over the deaths of my parents. It hurts a
lot if you have any feelings. But, I cannot live without my lovely
dog friends. I have a 14 year old greyhound living on the edge. I
know I may have weeks or months with her and it hurts to think of it,
but I welcome every morning to see her and love her.

You may not be able to cope with such feelings. One must balance the
good and the bad. It is part of life. Perhaps you cannot live with
the bad things that happen. I know, as I approach 70 years of life,
I
have rid myself of responsibilities so as to avoid unnecessary
stress,
but my dogs and my fish are my closest companions. I don't want to
face a new morning without them.

You must do what is right for you. Stress is not a good companion.

dick

Hey remember: They are just fish!!! They are cool and all but at the
end of the day they are still just fish!! I lost many in the last 2
months and flushed a few meanies. It sucks when you find a dead sucked
into the filter, but still it is fun and for the bad problems I will
still keep fighting the dreaded ICH!!! and keep my tanks, and look for
more tanks. Because it is cool when the fish come to the top of the
tank to eat color brite pellets one at a time as I drop them in. So
don't give up!!!